Bourgeois hell

Whew! It's been a while, hasn't it? But I can't let Benji get ahead of me on posting about angst-y decisions that eventually work their way out. I have a decision of my own, but I guess I can't depend on Google for a solution: Your search - "nevada versus spain" - did not match any documents. Suggestions:

• Make sure all words are spelled correctly.
• Try different keywords.
• Try more general keywords.

Damn. I have to do this on my own. So which type of anxiety do I want? The first choice, the most obvious choice, and the one which I was counting on for months, is going to Spain in September. I would be an assistant English teacher at an official language school and a secondary school in Fraga, Aragón, a town of about 15,000-20,000 people where the dominant language is Fragatí, a dialect of Catalán.
I shall list the advantanges of this choice, followed my its disadvantages:

• "Wow," I would be thinking (for about two months), "SPAIN."
  
• It would be really, really fun to learn Catalan
• It might be kind of fun to teach weird stuff about the US
• My Spanish would certainly improve
• I could travel, in Europe!
  

BUT:

• Foreigner Hell, the experience of being a retarded child in a place you know nothing about
• Horrible loneliness that would inevitably ensue
• €630 does not go that far, plus it's awfully expensive to fly over there
• What the hell am I going to do when I get back?
  
• Doesn't really add to my skills
• Teaching: Not that great

The second choice has only developed in the last couple of weeks. It would be going to Nevada and working for a year with the Nevada Conservation Corps, doing manual labor while camping out most of the time.

• It's Americorps, so I would get money for school at the end
• I would learn an awful lot about a region that's always fascinated me
• I would get to work on lots of satisfying projects that I feel are worthwhile
• I'd likely be living not too far from Lake Tahoe, and I could go there during some of my time off
• Camping all the time, gorgeous wild areas

HOWEVER:

• It's kind of crazy-different from what I had planned
• I really, really hope that I would get along with my co-workers, since I would we doing really intense work with them and living with them for a year
• Having to renounce Spain project, after accepting it enthusiastically
  
• General social anxieties
• Potential for life-altering chainsaw mutilation, especially considering how many times I've cut myself with nothing more than a god damn kitchen knife